Sometimes I think of all the poems that have been birthed, and killed, in my mind.
I’ll be brushing my teeth and looking at myself in the mirror, my grey hairs sparkling beneath the chestnut brown, peeking like a reminder. I’ll come up with a phrase, a thought, a word, that feels perfect for a poem. Sometimes I’ll write the entire poem. Other times, it’ll just be half a poem, a quarter of a poem, a title. I get a rush, my skin starts to warm, my eyes start to dart to my surroundings, looking for topics, metaphors, suspicions. I think, yes, I have to write that down.
Then, I spit out the toothpaste. I wash my mouth with water and wipe my mouth. And the poem will be gone. Just like that.
I think of all the poems that have been birthed, and killed, in my mind.
I think of what they could have become. Could they have been my best poem yet? Let’s be honest, most might not have amounted to anything, yet I feel guilt for not giving them a chance.